Forgetting fiance?

Let me tell you one of the proofs that my mind isn’t working properly these days.

After a few private messages back and forth with a few online sellers at LYN forum, today I found a rather good deal of Lumix TZ10 model, and even better, he got one in stock with brown color. So I was confident that I’m getting it, despite I didnt aim for TZ10 before this as it was the most expensive currently among the TZ series and I dont actually need the GPS function. But anyways. And my serviced apartment business is getting well lately and I’ve actually gained some good bucks with customers I got from my website whom I outsourced to some other apartment owners. I mean, apart the amount deserved by my mum as the owner of ours, the rest is totally my wages! :D So that’s the reason I feel the itch to get a rather neat camera now, especially I want to declare it as a gift upon finishing my master’s project ^_^ (or maybe, it’s our (me and Az) gift to ourselves.. as he apparently wants to pay half for it :P)

Okay the thing I meant to tell you was, this seller didnt provide delivery by mail, so I was thinking to ask Az to pick up the camera at his shop in KL. And when I was replying his msg, I wrote “Okay, after I do payment I will ask my bf to collect the camera as I’m in Penang.” and I paused, thinking should just I write friend instead of boyfriend in this message? Nah, he’s my boyfriend lah so I’d just write bf ^_^ and sent the message, got reply from the seller that I need to describe my bf when he comes to collect so that he wont pass the camera to a wrong person, etc etc.

And I called Az happily telling that I was determined to buy the camera now, and I told the same thing I wrote to the seller.. “I informed the seller that I’d ask my boyfriend to collect the camera, bla, bla, bla.. so you can go sg wang or not?, bla, bla..”

Okay, and 4-5 hours passed, and only just now I realized.

OMG, he’s not my boyfriend, he’s my fiance T_T

OMG OMG. I have a fiance, why I forgot one? Adoi..

I cant even be sure that for these few hours I’ve forgotten the fact that Az has been my fiance since almost two months.. maybe I  have always forgotten it all times!! >.< except only when I was reminded in a way or another during our phone conversation, or the wedding stuff my mum has been talking to me, etc etc, but I have to admit that it’s not firmly registered in my mind yet, the fact that I’m engaged to Az. Does this happen to other people too?

Is this a crime, this silly forgetness? And does it actually matter? Maybe not much, but suddenly I cant help but feel bad, for forgetting such simple thing yet BIG fact, especially I know that Az likes to mention every now and then, addressing me as his fiance.

Or maybe I’m just too overloaded with Fuzzy readings and writing right now so I myself have been fuzzified with transition of having a boyfriend and having a fiance. (though when I think again, it was also fuzzy during transition of friend and boyfriend before, no?).

I do feel sorry, to anyone who has a fiance like me.. and to Az, I’m so sorry and it wasnt intended but you have to face the fact that you have a forgetful fiance. I just hope that it wont happen in future that I would forget that I have a husband.. heh. Otherwise it would be really weird, I guess.

Kursus Kahwin?

Pre-marriage course. Note to my foreign friends: the marriage law in Malaysia needs people to undergo a short (usually 2 days) course before they can apply for a marriage. You’ll be given a certificate, which literally qualifies you to get married in this country. Or something like that. What do they teach you in the pre-marriage course? Marriage stuff, of course :P (dont ask me, I’ve never been to any, yet, so I have no idea).

Well, Az is in the hometown attending his pre-marriage course today (today & tomorrow, in fact). I hope he really pays attention, instead of falling asleep in there (which I wont be surprised if he is anyway, knowing that he stayed up last night for work =.=).

Me? I have not yet attended any course, and it makes sense that I’m supposed to do it too, probably soon. But I’m in between busy and lazy, and how could you expect that I can occupy my mind with another sudden new thingy like speeches about marriage and laws when right now all I know is a huge partition of my mind is fully occupied with questions like what on earth is this (2p+1)x(2p+1) window in this image Fuzzy algorithm?? I mean, window??? What window?? Cant I use the image size mxn instead like most algorithm to work on every image pixel? And why I need to solve other people’s methods in the first place when I already got mine working and giving result? Why make it so complicated?? Agh.

Nevermind.

Back to topic, the pre-marriage course. It’s actually finally I know the useful thing with the fact that I went to religious high school before, and with the Kelantan State Marriage Law’s Dept is actually giving me the privilege to be exempted from taking the pre-marriage course as I did the Sijil Menengah Ugama (SMU) exam back then during Form 4 and I own the SMU exam certificate, and I dont know the relevance is, but it doesnt matter coz WHAT MATTERS IS I DONT NEED TO GO PREMARRIAGE COURSE IN ORDER TO GET MARRIED! Yay. It does save my life now.

Never mind the fact that I barely remember anything of the Fiqh subject I studied for the SMU cert – which covered a bit of many things of Islamic marriage laws (come on, it’s 10 years ago, and doesnt everyone learn things at school for the sake of exam only and later we forget everything?).

Not that I object the idea of going to the course – going anyway even though I’m fully qualified for an exemption (ceh, cakap besar pulak hehe), but I think in this critical time I’ll just make use of the exemption for the marriage application purpose, coz I really dont have time and mood and a sane mind to go some formal and spiritual and legal session like that. At least not now. Okay, maybe I’m a bit lazy actually. And I’m not ready. For the purpose of polishing back the knowledge, maybe I’ll go to the course after the marriage, if needed. Can or not? ^_^

The Chronicles of Right Eyelid Infection

Day 4. Getting OK.

I can now open my right eye by 85% (it was barely 30% the other night when it was the worst – yes, and I realized that I tend to be unnecessarily emotional whenever I get down with sickness like this =_=, where’s my patience??!)

BUT!!!!!!

Maybe I *did* become patient enough that yesterday evening a magical happiness happened totally out of the blue! Bless my infected right eye that I managed to SEE what had been ‘unseen’ all this while :P

I’ll let the print screen below do the talking ;D