Coz I know I dont have anyone else to cry to whenever I’m sick..
Coz I know I dont have anyone else to cry to whenever I’m sick..
I got an eyelid infection, now my right eye has a bump and bruise. (somehow I wanted to blame this eye cream I used to wear a couple of months back, but then why right eye only?)
I cant go to library or school with this horrible face of mine.
And I got fungus infection at the back of my neck. (!!)
And I got stung by charlie (aka semut kayap) yet for another time T_T (dah banyak scar kat peha, kat belly, kat lengan, benci charlie!! Ni la akibatnya USM terceruk tengah ladang kelapa sawit)
What happened to me now? :(
I want to get out of this horrible place, please???
I’m still stuck with my program and cant seem to get the desired result however many times I’ve fixed the codes. I started to think my Matlab software has been infected by a virus that it’s not giving me my wanted output correctly.
1- These few weeks I choose to stay in library instead of my cubical in Postgrad room. I came to think that I do actually like library better. And the Postgrad room has freezing air-conditioning that my hands get stiff after a few hours =.= (eh.. camana nak main snow nih kalau tak tahan sejuk??). Plus I can stay in library comfortably til late, 10.30pm, while the Postgrad room will start to be empty after 7pm, leaving me alone with unwelcome thoughts of hantu might appear at any time. Just kidding, I dont fear of that, but it’s a little tiny bit uncomfortable of being alone til late night in an empty office room at the 3rd floor with nobody’s around.
2- Dr Umi gave me til end of this month to finalize my program and analyze the outputs, and by November I’ll have to start writing thesis. One month. Hopefully I’ll manage to get it done accordingly.
3- Alot of credit cards usage this month which makes me feel bad that I had to rely on my parents to pay the bills still. From Kelisa maintenance service to changing the exhaust pipe to replacing my broken printer (and even the new printer got breakdown after 2nd usage T_T now waiting for HP to send a replacement). And some unnecessary makeup and beauty stuff I suddenly had to buy for the engagement. Tak jadik cantik sgt pon.. :/
4- My serviced apartment business is going good, Alhamdulillah. Got a number of bookings til December, mostly during weekends. It makes me a busy hotel manager now, getting calls and making calls every now and then.. haiyoh.
5- It’s both sensible and not sensible if I say I’m still not thinking about wedding preparation yet, even though the family have discussed that it will be happening in 4 months. I know normal people would start planning one year ahead before the big day, but to me.. I’m just too busy and lazy to think about wedding. Or maybe it’s still not really my thing. (Can I actually say that?). Tsk..
6- But but but!! I’m already excitedly preparing for our trip to India in April. The trip is way more important than wedding, hahaha.
7- Oooppss.. terlepas cakap pulak :P
This post was meant to be posted yesterday, but I simply forgot =.=
A few weeks ago, I was anticipating yesterday so much, and wanted to make a dedicated post for this date, 16 October, for some reason that you may or may not be aware of.
Yesterday completed one whole year since Az came into my life.
I really dont know where to start. This one magical year, which has so quickly passed, but at the same time, it feels as if it was a very long, long year, looking back how far we have gone.
I could say, this accidental and unexpected meeting, which one can see it too ridiculous to just be a coincidence, therefore I chose to see it as a destiny, it’s really meant to be this way, God has answered my prayers at right time my life was in a deepshit, and brought him to me almost just instantly. A savior.
Through Google :P
Yup, this wouldnt have happened without Google. Yeah, big credit to Google that he found my WordPress.com blog, and we’re now a happy engaged couple.
Now let me tell you the story of how Az found his fiancé through Google :P
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One evening on 16th October 2009, there’s a guy on his PC, browsing Google for a certain keyword: Tasik Heights Apartment for rent. Just that.
And he was randomly clicking through some results he got on the first page.
It was when he arrived to this blog post entitled “Tasik Heights Apartment?” dated back in 2008, written by a girl before her moving to the apartment when starting her job in KL.
The guy, assuming that the blog owner was still living in the apartment, decided to ask her regarding the rental, though he somehow didnt leave the comment at the right post, but rather, the latest post of the blog at that particular time.
The blog post doesnt sound so right, no? The girl was hardly updating her blog in those days. She was suffering from big depression thanks to sudden realization that her decision of coming to USM doing Master’s might be a wrong idea when she was failing two Analog tests in a row, but that’s not actually the main reason of the depression. It was more because she was having the biggest argument with the ex-bf, whom she had wanted to stay friends with, which turned out to be even the worst decision she had ever made in her life. Even writing blog didnt help, knowing that her readers and family might not like the idea she was still in contact with the ex after a year of leaving him, so she chose to keep it secret. The most bitter secret she had to keep in her throat. And she totally had nobody else to turn to.
Except maybe, God.
She was praying harder than she had ever done in her life. It’s ironic that maybe you get the closest to Him when you’re saddest and lowest and suicidal, so desperately to ask Him to wipe away the sadness from you. It was when she knows that her Creator really listens to her little voice when nobody else would. It was when the miracle happened.
God sent the savior directly to the girl’s blog. In the form of a clueless guy asking sensible rental of an apartment. Yes, it doesnt sound relevant: from apartment rental, to saving someone from depression, to love. But it simply happened that way. Believe me.
The girl, woke up in the morning and after a great prayer, opened her laptop checking email, and suddenly the blog comment notification made her smile. Which she didnt know how and why, but she just felt a happy itch. It was not the first time she received questions regarding the apartment anyway, as if she was still living there. As if she had a room for rent =.= But she decided to kindly reply the comment by email.
And the guy, instead of accepting the fact that he wouldnt get the answer for the apartment question and leave, still somehow, unexpectedly, replied back the girl’s email.
See.. siap kasi FB profile link :P And by this time the girl had a sudden feeling that this funny guy apparently has a few things in common with her, and at least he could be someone she can communicate, for whatever matter. So she replied again, and added him to FB friend as courtesy.
And there came the first FB message from the guy upon approving the FB friendship. The magical message you could call the savior of the girl’s depression to instantly be wiped away. I mean, seriously!
Now, do you sense any love to grow shortly afterwards? And, is it possible for the girl not to fall in love at first message, especially at the point of time she needed a cheer so much?
The guy might still be an unknown stranger to her by this stage, but whether you believe it or not, she did fall in love.
And that’s how it all started.
P.S. to Az, I just feel the right to share these conversations today, after a year it happened. Hope you dont mind ;P
..This story post may be continued, and may be not.