has passed since Az came into my life.
It’s funny, really, coz I didnt intend to remind myself or remember the exact date I started knowing him, as nobody really pays so much attention on which particular date and month and year they know anyone, no? And I never actually take note when I know this person and when I know that person either.
But it’s just coincidently I happen to learn the very date I started knowing Az coz it was literally, clearly written in my blog. To be precise, on his first comment ever since in one of the posts at ilyani.wordpress.com (yep, before I got my own domain I used to write there).
I wouldnt go into much details but I find it amusing knowing that the very day I got his comment message was a day to remember, I know nobody would understand or believe if I said his sudden appearance had been sort of waited by me at that particular time, in such a mysterious way that couldnt really be explained entirely by words, and I would like to see it as a miracle by God that it happened. Though I did get many random visitors arriving to the blog from Google search as he did, for the same reason and keywords as he did, leaving comments as he did, but apparently it was such a destined timing, among other reasons that only both of us aware of, that made him instantly stay in my heart ever since. Oh kay, should I say he’s been my blog’s biggest fan too, ever since then? :P
And today, it’s been 6 months. Half a year. Much faster as I had realized. And even if it’s only been 6 months, by this time he knows me more than anyone else in this world does. And I feel as if I have been happy like forever. You have no idea how my life was going through a year before that, with so much hell to endure and overcome, which almost took my entire life to suffer in order to forget. I had never expected it would be so much easy to gain my smile back, with the appearance of someone only in virtual space. Love does happen at the time and place you least expect it.
What’s been going in these 6 months? 300+ Gmail conversations, 50+ Google chats, 180 returning visits from his office computer to my blog (I dont know why but StatCounter only keeps his office PC’s IP in memory, while the rest being reset every now and then so by far the most returning visit I can keep track is from Az – that’s why he gets ilyani.net’s biggest fan award :D). Countless phone calls and SMS. Oh, and only one meeting, duh. I admit I don’t write every single thing going on with my new relationship as I did with previous, perhaps I’m getting more mature and be careful of what I’m writing (read: whining) online, or maybe it’s because I’m aware he’s reading me while the previous guy had no idea at all that I was keeping a blog.
Anyways, I dont know if this special dedication post is necessary, I know it may sound too cheesy and I dont want to look so much excited regarding relationship and stuff that I need to announce to the whole world. But please bear with me for this time as I want to pause the time for a while and make myself to look back to 6 months ago when it all started in such a strange way. Funny :)
Okay, Az, if you ever read this I just want to thank with all my heart for your existence and for being around all this while. I just could say it has changed my life ever since. And the more I believe God does love me and He won’t let me suffer the love-less life for too long :)
Hmm.. ni budak mana pulak nih? O_O Tiba-tiba pulak masuk menjengah kat post ni takde kaitan langsung..
Hehe ini bukan sebarang budak tau kawan2.. Budak comel ni berada di tempat pertama dalam carta ilyani’s obsessions selama 7 hari berturut2. I pun taktau kenapa.. memang sangat obses dgn budak ni sehingga di tahap gambar dia dijadikan wallpaper laptop saya ha. Nakkk sangat3 jumpa dengan budak comel ni one day… huhu.. taktau la bila, dalam mimpi pun tak kisah.. sebab saya sangat2 suka dia tak terhingga. I lagi suka budak ni dari Az.. ooops.
Sorry ye Az, I dah jatuh cinta dengan budak ni dah sekarang.. I dont care la you nak kata apa..