161009 Love Story: How it all started..

This post was meant to be posted yesterday, but I simply forgot =.=

A few weeks ago, I was anticipating yesterday so much, and wanted to make a dedicated post for this date, 16 October, for some reason that you may or may not be aware of.

Yesterday completed one whole year since Az came into my life.

I really dont know where to start. This one magical year, which has so quickly passed, but at the same time, it feels as if it was a very long, long year, looking back how far we have gone.

I could say, this accidental and unexpected meeting, which one can see it too ridiculous to just be a coincidence, therefore I chose to see it as a destiny, it’s really meant to be this way, God has answered my prayers at right time my life was in a deepshit, and brought him to me almost just instantly. A savior.

Through Google :P

Yup, this wouldnt have happened without Google. Yeah, big credit to Google that he found my WordPress.com blog, and we’re now a happy engaged couple.

Now let me tell you the story of how Az found his fiancé through Google :P

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One evening on 16th October 2009, there’s a guy on his PC, browsing Google for a certain keyword: Tasik Heights Apartment for rent. Just that.

And he was randomly clicking through some results he got on the first page.

It was when he arrived to this blog post entitled “Tasik Heights Apartment?” dated back in 2008, written by a girl before her moving to the apartment when starting her job in KL.

The guy, assuming that the blog owner was still living in the apartment, decided to ask her regarding the rental, though he somehow didnt leave the comment at the right post, but rather, the latest post of the blog at that particular time.

The blog post doesnt sound so right, no? The girl was hardly updating her blog in those days. She was suffering from big depression thanks to sudden realization that her decision of coming to USM doing Master’s might be a wrong idea when she was failing two Analog tests in a row, but that’s not actually the main reason of the depression. It was more because she was having the biggest argument with the ex-bf, whom she had wanted to stay friends with, which turned out to be even the worst decision she had ever made in her life. Even writing blog didnt help, knowing that her readers and family might not like the idea she was still in contact with the ex after a year of leaving him, so she chose to keep it secret. The most bitter secret she had to keep in her throat. And she totally had nobody else to turn to.

Except maybe, God.

She was praying harder than she had ever done in her life. It’s ironic that maybe you get the closest to Him when you’re saddest and lowest and suicidal, so desperately to ask Him to wipe away the sadness from you. It was when she knows that her Creator really listens to her little voice when nobody else would. It was when the miracle happened.

God sent the savior directly to the girl’s blog. In the form of a clueless guy asking sensible rental of an apartment. Yes, it doesnt sound relevant: from apartment rental, to saving someone from depression, to love. But it simply happened that way. Believe me.

The girl, woke up in the morning and after a great prayer, opened her laptop checking email, and suddenly the blog comment notification made her smile. Which she didnt know how and why, but she just felt a happy itch. It was not the first time she received questions regarding the apartment anyway, as if she was still living there. As if she had a room for rent =.=  But she decided to kindly reply the comment by email.

And the guy, instead of accepting the fact that he wouldnt get the answer for the apartment question and leave, still somehow, unexpectedly, replied back the girl’s email.

See.. siap kasi FB profile link :P And by this time the girl had a sudden feeling that this funny guy apparently has a few things in common with her, and at least he could be someone she can communicate, for whatever matter. So she replied again, and added him to FB friend as courtesy.

And  there came the first FB message from the guy upon approving the FB friendship. The magical message you could call the savior of the girl’s depression to instantly be wiped away. I mean, seriously!

Now, do you sense any love to grow shortly afterwards? And, is it possible for the girl not to fall in love at first message, especially at the point of time she needed a cheer so much?

The guy might still be an unknown stranger to her by this stage, but whether you believe it or not, she did fall in love.


And that’s how it all started.


P.S. to Az, I just feel the right to share these conversations today, after a year it happened. Hope you dont mind ;P

..This story post may be continued, and may be not.

6 months

has passed since Az came into my life.

It’s funny, really, coz I didnt intend to remind myself or remember the exact date I started knowing him, as nobody really pays so much attention on which particular date and month and year they know anyone, no? And I never actually take note when I know this person and when I know that person either.

But it’s just coincidently I happen to learn the very date I started knowing Az coz it was literally, clearly written in my blog. To be precise, on his first comment ever since in one of the posts at ilyani.wordpress.com (yep, before I got my own domain I used to write there).

I wouldnt go into much details but I find it amusing knowing that the very day I got his comment message was a day to remember, I know nobody would understand or believe if I said his sudden appearance had been sort of waited by me at that particular time, in such a mysterious way that couldnt really be explained entirely by words, and I would like to see it as a miracle by God that it happened. Though I did get many random visitors arriving to the blog from Google search as he did, for the same reason and keywords as he did, leaving comments as he did, but apparently it was such a destined timing, among other reasons that only both of us aware of, that made him instantly stay in my heart ever since. Oh kay, should I say he’s been my blog’s biggest fan too, ever since then? :P

And today, it’s been 6 months. Half a year. Much faster as I had realized. And even if it’s only been 6 months, by this time he knows me more than anyone else in this world does. And I feel as if I have been happy like forever. You have no idea how my life was going through a year before that, with so much hell to endure and overcome, which almost took my entire life to suffer in order to forget. I had never expected it would be so much easy to gain my smile back, with the appearance of someone only in virtual space. Love does happen at the time and place you least expect it.

What’s been going in these 6 months? 300+ Gmail conversations, 50+ Google chats, 180 returning visits from his office computer to my blog (I dont know why but StatCounter only keeps his office PC’s IP in memory, while the rest being reset every now and then so by far the most returning visit I can keep track is from Az – that’s why he gets ilyani.net’s biggest fan award :D). Countless phone calls and SMS. Oh, and only one meeting, duh. I admit I don’t write every single thing going on with my new relationship as I did with previous, perhaps I’m getting more mature and be careful of what I’m writing (read: whining) online, or maybe it’s because I’m aware he’s reading me while the previous guy had no idea at all that I was keeping a blog.

Anyways, I dont know if this special dedication post is necessary, I know it may sound  too cheesy and I dont want to look so much excited regarding relationship and stuff that I need to announce to the whole world. But please bear with me for this time as I want to pause the time for a while and make myself to look back to 6 months ago when it all started in such a strange way. Funny :)

Okay, Az, if you ever read this I just want to thank with all my heart for your existence and for being around all this while. I just could say it has changed my life ever since. And the more I believe God does love me and He won’t let me suffer the love-less life for too long :)

Hmm.. ni budak mana pulak nih? O_O Tiba-tiba pulak masuk menjengah kat post ni takde kaitan langsung..

Hehe ini bukan sebarang budak tau kawan2.. Budak comel ni berada di tempat pertama dalam carta ilyani’s obsessions selama 7 hari berturut2. I pun taktau kenapa.. memang sangat obses dgn budak ni sehingga di tahap gambar dia dijadikan wallpaper laptop saya ha. Nakkk sangat3 jumpa dengan budak comel ni one day… huhu.. taktau la bila, dalam mimpi pun tak kisah.. sebab saya sangat2 suka dia tak terhingga. I lagi suka budak ni dari Az.. ooops.

Sorry ye Az, I dah jatuh cinta dengan budak ni dah sekarang.. I dont care la you nak kata apa..