I should be awarded as THE WORLD’S FASTEST PERSON TO GET PANIC and shortly later realize that it was nothing at all as I was fussing about. It must be the fever virus affecting my emotion and messed with it =.=
Nevermind, but at least I learned about different people behavior, and to prepare myself to not freak out too soon next time it happens. But mind you, if it ever happens again next time, I’ll go and punch you in the face. Or maybe punch my own face. Either way, it will be a lesson to everyone out there so that you know how to avoid yourselves from being punched!! Like, dont go MIA out of the blue and send a smells-like-goodbye SMS to someone who’s expecting something otherwise. In such a critical time. If you know what I mean.
BTW, I’ve closed the fan page of ilyani.net, it’s pointless anyway, I mean.. since when I started collecting fans?? I collect only postcards lah ;P (actually I freaked out after one of my roommates suddenly noticed the link from FB.. and asking, “what’s this ilyani dot net?” and I was like, “eh.. nothing, please dont open it!!” >.< mygosh, the last thing I want to know is my own roommates find out about this blog existence!). Hmmm anyway after realizing that I actually *still* prefer my blog to be discreet the way it used to be all this while, with only few sincere friends who really care to read, and not to pass by for the sake of, well, passing by. I dont even mind the silent readers who read :) I still want this place to be the place I can whine about life and love without fear if my posts will bore people to death, without me being like a stranger in my own home. This is afterall the place I talk to myself (or maybe if I’m lucky, to you too). Let’s just say these couple of weeks I’ve been experimenting the socialized version of blogging, and not that I dont like it, it was hell of fun and I love knowing new people and getting to know them from their blogs, and I was trying to put myself in such group too, until the moment I said to myself, what the hell is it that I’m (and they’re) actually doing? Visiting random blogs without intention to read at all, but only hoping them to visit back? Tsk.. it’s not me.
Well, I’m taking it slow then :) Let’s see how it will go. In the meantime I’ll be busy with exam coming up soon, so YAY, you won’t be flooded with boring posts by me that much anymore :P
And someone who called me sohappilyasifeverythingsfineunlikewhatiwasbloodyworriedof today wants me to put this countdown ticker in my blog to prove me that he will definitely come visit me in Nibong Tebal after the exam on his birthday, so I have to study hard.
I don’t know if I still have that excitement anymore after what has happened.
Maybe it will come back as soon as my nose stops running. I finally went to the clinic today. *snorts*