Oh kay, it was a bloody nightmare =_=


I should be awarded as THE WORLD’S FASTEST PERSON TO GET PANIC and shortly later realize that it was nothing at all as I was fussing about. It must be the fever virus affecting my emotion and messed with it =.=

Nevermind, but at least I learned about different people behavior, and to prepare myself to not freak out too soon next time it happens. But mind you, if it ever happens again next time, I’ll go and punch you in the face. Or maybe punch my own face. Either way, it will be a lesson to everyone out there so that you know how to avoid yourselves from being punched!! Like, dont go MIA out of the blue and send a smells-like-goodbye SMS to someone who’s expecting something otherwise. In such a critical time. If you know what I mean.

BTW, I’ve closed the fan page of ilyani.net, it’s pointless anyway, I mean.. since when I started collecting fans?? I collect only postcards lah ;P (actually I freaked out after one of my roommates suddenly noticed the link from FB.. and asking, “what’s this ilyani dot net?” and I was like, “eh.. nothing, please dont open it!!” >.< mygosh, the last thing I want to know is my own¬†roommates find out about this blog existence!). Hmmm anyway after realizing that I actually *still* prefer my blog to be discreet the way it used to be all this while, with only few sincere friends who really care to read, and not to pass by for the sake of, well, passing by. I dont even mind the silent readers who read :) I still want this place to be the place I can whine about life and love without fear if my posts will bore people to death, without me being like a stranger in my own home. This is afterall the place I talk to myself (or maybe if I’m lucky, to you too). Let’s just say these couple of weeks I’ve been experimenting the¬†socialized version of blogging, and not that I dont like it, it was hell of fun and I love knowing new people and getting to know them from their blogs, and I was trying to put myself in such group too, until the moment I said to myself, what the hell is it that I’m (and they’re) actually doing? Visiting random blogs without intention to read at all, but only hoping them to visit back? Tsk.. it’s not me.

Well, I’m taking it slow then :) Let’s see how it will go. In the meantime I’ll be busy with exam coming up soon, so YAY, you won’t be flooded with boring posts by me that much anymore :P

And someone who called me sohappilyasifeverythingsfineunlikewhatiwasbloodyworriedof today wants me to put this countdown ticker in my blog to prove me that he will definitely come visit me in Nibong Tebal after the exam on his birthday, so I have to study hard.

Yeah right.

I don’t know if I still have that excitement anymore after what has happened.

Maybe it will come back as soon as my nose stops running. I finally went to the clinic today. *snorts*

My Date Night

I am in my own conflict to post this entry. It’s pretty obvious by now that I’ve been obsessed with Nuffnang and the ads and contests I’m having so many pending ideas to write about for each, but at the same time, for this topic, I feel rather bad that again I have to tell a story about Az for yet another time. I mean, I know I’ve been abusing his privacy lately thanks to mentioning him in almost every post in this blog =_= Sorry dear, but please bear with me this time as I’M WRITING THIS FOR THE SAKE OF FREE MOVIE TICKETS AND WE CAN WATCH IT WITH 89 OTHER NUFFNANGERS IN THE BIG SCREEN! :D WHOOOOOHOOOOOOOOOOOO!

Now doesn’t that sound cool?

So let me begin. *Ahem…*

My date night with Az has actually been my first and only date with him so far. Can you believe it? After magically trapping him to arrive in my sappy blog from Google search sometime in October last year, and shortly later we found out that we liked each other, followed by countless chats and emails conversation and phone calls… but ONLY after 4 months passing, we were able to meet up for the first time. There were several attempts and plans to meet earlier, but they either ended with cancellation upon other commitment or disastrous event of a failing surprise thanks to his mobile phone that chose to die at that critical time.. ok.. no need to story about it =_=

Let’s go back to the happening date.

It was in KL Sentral, the night when I took a train back to Penang after the mid-semester holiday. He kept telling me he was nervous, but I pretended to be cool and steady, as if it was not gonna be a problem to me, meeting someone you’ve been sharing your feelings and talking about almost everything under the sun… for the first time!

9.45pm, I arrived in KL Sentral by LRT and was heading to McDonalds, our promised place since Az says he’s a big fan of McDonalds and loves refilling its Coke for many glasses. I sat there, calm, but of course I was nervous like hell too, in my mind constantly wondering many things, how does he really look? Will it be the same as the Facebook pics I’ve seen earlier? Will he turn out to be a decent man physically, in the sense of personality and attitude as he appears virtually? Will he….

*questions suddenly go away as a gentleman appears heading towards me* O_O

“Hi, Assalamualaikum” he says.

“Hi. Waalaikumsalam”… I answer. *then speechless*

*dont know what to say further.. can’t really stare his eyes either.. so panic now.. alamak.. why why why*

*Pretending checking something in the bag.. while he’s waiting for me to acknowledge his coming*

*my forehead sweating (v_v;).. still can’t make eye contact with his.. aakk.*



Hehehehe, no lah, afterwards we just started talking as usual, take pictures some more. Though not as ‘talkative’ as we had been virtually and on the phone. I really don’t understand.. maybe it’s normal for a physical first date? Regardless you’ve known each other so much already by that time? Hmm… or maybe it’s the fact that I hadn’t been in a date with a guy for more than a year already, hence the weird feelings? =_= Okay, that could be true as well. Aiyoh.

Nevermind, it was nevertheless a real meaningful start, with him sending me to the train terminal and right into the train itself after the McDonalds treat :) Indeed, a memorable date night, it was. *happy sigh*

And bla bla bla.. and later the prince and princess live happily ever after… (typical default happy ending now coz I’m lazy to ramble even more..)

I hope I can still be among the first 90 entries for this contest, PLEASE????????????? Thank you! ^_^


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Disclaimer: This post contains unextreme cheesy statements of an excited girl who’s been crazily in love lately. Please bear with her.

As much as I see myself a boring girl living a boring life, sometimes I do realize that at some points of this so-called life of mine, things do get really extraordinary. And I mean extraordinary. And I do realize, that it does not happen to average normal people everyday, like when one day I was down with tears, and the next day I suddenly found my savior whom I’d call love, right from my blog. My blog. This blog. Who would have thought, this dull blog with all the craps I have to whine about every day, would unexpectedly trap an amazing guy doing a Google search somewhere, in such a funny way now all the coincidence turned out to look like as if they’re meant to be destiny. What could make a blogger prouder than to find her love right from her very own webspace? :) I tell you, it’s extraordinary. Az has changed my life ever since. Despite we haven’t met in real life, the feelings have been the most real and certain I have ever had inside me. It’s perfect. Blessful. Motivating. Moving. And I don’t want it to end. I don’t want to lose him. Rest assured.

To my dear readers, friends or silent followers, or you’re just passing by here just like most people are,

I have to announce here proudly.

That my heart is officially taken :)

Please pray for us.

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– Analog exam… *sob* :(( I dont know if I should be happy now that it’s gone.. but it still keeps haunting me, the fact that I – despite having studied the hardest in this century – couldn’t actually do the exam very well. WHYYYYY? Maybe Electronics isn’t my talent afterall…

– Have to study DIP & DSP both for next paper @_@

– OK at least I have something to be happy about lately.. or, should I say, someone? *wink wink* Uhm, I dont know if it’s too early to write this here, or rather, if I ever need to write this at all in this blog at this time, but really, I have found a new friend, in a magical way, and I could say he’s very special, decent and respectable, and really, I said magical coz it sure IS. You won’t believe it. I am very thankful to God for having brought him to me at the moment I needed someone the most, at least to knock some sense on me that this life is too short to be sad about. So yeah, I am 360 degree happy. Now. And I wish I will always be happy like this. And to that person (you know who you are), if you ever read this, all I want to say is,

thank you.

For being part of this miracle.